So I’m not going to lie and say 2016 has been one of my greatest years, in fact it turned out to be one of my worst. I’ve learnt a lot of lessons this year that I will build on for the rest of my life. The first being that you never appreciate the small sparks of light as much as you do when you’ve spent a long time in the dark.
The first 9 months of this year were appalling; January brought the end of a violent relationship and the loss of my home. April I was finally free of the housing contract I shared with him but it also brought the end of the comfort of my job. July brought mental turmoil in the way of announced redundancies and August brought a mental health breakdown. October I was diagnosed as bipolar 2 and November with adhd. I am now 6 days from leaving the UK behind and not far off starting a new year.
So I want to rewrite this year correctly looking at the positives. January, I survived an attempt on my life and manged to walk away from that relationship with my head held high whilst still keeping my job and degree going. February, I learnt to run and how to deal with the end of a relationship healthily. I took off to malaga and ran along the sea front every morning. I put myself first and refused to let him get to me. April, I went on our anniversary trip alone and did some incredible things. I did all the things I wasn’t allowed to do with him. I returned to the uk to be told that my boss was leaving and began to see that maybe the job wasn’t right for me. I also ended the housing contract and was finally free to live life how I wanted. June I passed the first half of my degree! July I learnt that I was being made redundant so I decided to leave the UK to go around the world. August, I left the job that was killing me and asked for help. I accepted that sometimes you can’t do it all on your own and you need to let others help you. October, I started taking the medication that has changed my life, I battled with myself for a long time about whether to take them but I made the right choice. November I found out that I have had adhd my whole life and that eventhough I’m annoyed that noone spotted it sooner it does not limit what I can achieve. December, I’ve spent making memories with the people I love. I’ve done some amazing things this month.
2016 has been hard, but I’ve learnt. I’ve grown as a person. I’ve met some amazing people! been to some amazing places, reconnected with old friends, I’ve seen my God kids grow into amazing little humans, watched my current friends grow in strength. I’ve learnt to say no and yes, I’ve grabbed opportunities, been on adventures. I’ve made memories that will last me a lifetime. I’ve got a long way to go but here’s to you 2017 I’ve already promised myself you will be amazing.